09-15-2017, 12:54 AM
So recently some lovely helpful people reminded folks to make an effort about pronouns, and there was some discussion over how to portray crossplaying/NPCing as another gender in a way that wouldn't hurt trans players.
I'm glad this is being talked about, and I'm glad Ralinwood is a place that it can be talked about. When I first joined, the official rules on respecting peoples' pronouns were no small part of why I chose to larp here. When people correct you and insist on what pronouns they need you to use, it is a sign of trust. There are many situations where I suffer quietly or just leave because it's not an environment where I feel safe enough to speak my mind.
With that, I come to another factor that needs to be considered, and that's what not to say when someone corrects you on their pronouns, or those of the character they're playing: don't blame them for your mistake.
I understand why people have the reflex to get defensive. You heck up, and you want to blame it on something, because you mean well and aren't trying to be a dick. But if I'm playing a male hobling and mention that he's a man after being called a 'she', and you reply by saying I need better sideburns, that is the wrong response. It may seem like an innocent comment on my makeup, but in that moment you are telling me that I didn't put enough effort into passing.
Well meaning friends have suggested in the past I paint on facial hair for Carrion. I don't want to. Some people like using makeup in that way, but I don't. It's not a compromise I personally feel comfortable making, any more than I'd want to discard his long overtunic out of the fear it resembles a dress, or cut my hair, or risk attempting to bind my chest for a length of time that could do serious and irreversible damage to my body. Carrion is one of the few times in my daily life I have a chance to be who I need to be, far beyond the usual wish fulfillment larp can give us, and how he looks is just as important to me as how I dress myself out of game.
I'm not trying to bamboozle you and then catch you messing up, and when you blame someone's clothing or makeup or bodytype or voice or anything else on your mistake, you are saying they didn't make it easy enough on you. And often that is beyond our control, and you are going to make us feel like garbage. If you screw up someone's pronouns, just give a quick sorry and correct yourself, as if you forgot their name. If you see someone screwing up someone's pronouns, gently correct them, because I'd rather it not be habit by the time they get to me. I personally know that I'm very easily misgendered, and I try constantly to take that into account. I can tolerate the umpteenth time I've had to correct someone, but what I really struggle with is being blamed for it.
Finally, with all the talk of people trying out NPCing a character of a different gender than the one they typically present as, all this still matters. I have been within earshot of people's snide remarks about what's in the pants of an NPC they felt didn't pass for the gender of the character they were playing, and that is not okay.
I genuinely don't think that people in this guild are trying to be cruel, and despite my examples being actual things that were said to me or near me, I'm not trying to call those people out. I can't actually remember who you were. I just think it can get better, and really hope it does.
I'm glad this is being talked about, and I'm glad Ralinwood is a place that it can be talked about. When I first joined, the official rules on respecting peoples' pronouns were no small part of why I chose to larp here. When people correct you and insist on what pronouns they need you to use, it is a sign of trust. There are many situations where I suffer quietly or just leave because it's not an environment where I feel safe enough to speak my mind.
With that, I come to another factor that needs to be considered, and that's what not to say when someone corrects you on their pronouns, or those of the character they're playing: don't blame them for your mistake.
I understand why people have the reflex to get defensive. You heck up, and you want to blame it on something, because you mean well and aren't trying to be a dick. But if I'm playing a male hobling and mention that he's a man after being called a 'she', and you reply by saying I need better sideburns, that is the wrong response. It may seem like an innocent comment on my makeup, but in that moment you are telling me that I didn't put enough effort into passing.
Well meaning friends have suggested in the past I paint on facial hair for Carrion. I don't want to. Some people like using makeup in that way, but I don't. It's not a compromise I personally feel comfortable making, any more than I'd want to discard his long overtunic out of the fear it resembles a dress, or cut my hair, or risk attempting to bind my chest for a length of time that could do serious and irreversible damage to my body. Carrion is one of the few times in my daily life I have a chance to be who I need to be, far beyond the usual wish fulfillment larp can give us, and how he looks is just as important to me as how I dress myself out of game.
I'm not trying to bamboozle you and then catch you messing up, and when you blame someone's clothing or makeup or bodytype or voice or anything else on your mistake, you are saying they didn't make it easy enough on you. And often that is beyond our control, and you are going to make us feel like garbage. If you screw up someone's pronouns, just give a quick sorry and correct yourself, as if you forgot their name. If you see someone screwing up someone's pronouns, gently correct them, because I'd rather it not be habit by the time they get to me. I personally know that I'm very easily misgendered, and I try constantly to take that into account. I can tolerate the umpteenth time I've had to correct someone, but what I really struggle with is being blamed for it.
Finally, with all the talk of people trying out NPCing a character of a different gender than the one they typically present as, all this still matters. I have been within earshot of people's snide remarks about what's in the pants of an NPC they felt didn't pass for the gender of the character they were playing, and that is not okay.
I genuinely don't think that people in this guild are trying to be cruel, and despite my examples being actual things that were said to me or near me, I'm not trying to call those people out. I can't actually remember who you were. I just think it can get better, and really hope it does.
IG: A human man in a crow skull mask, grey stole, and black clerical vestments. Occasionally carries an iron or silver dagger, but more often seen without any visible weapons or amour to speak of.
OOG: Danny Heintz, he/him. Transmasc in progress, please disregard mine bræsts.
OOG: Danny Heintz, he/him. Transmasc in progress, please disregard mine bræsts.